So many words, so little time.

There's so many ways to die,

2009-07-15T09:36:00.001-07:00

There's so many ways to die, she smiles in your face but is slowly dying insideThe bruises on her skin she hides the fact that there from him.He used to tell her she was a gem, Her friends say "Girl why you with him?" We all know its hard to let go but pain only causes you to grow, build yourself up like Lego. There's so many ways to die, trapped in excuses hanging from self made nooses. Everyday stress builds walls, you want to give up on it all.You never take time to breathe look at what you achieved and admire it slowly.Your in a rush but good things go to those who wait. Don't debate the minor stuff equate time to success enjoy every moment, every step, with less stress. Invest time in people who move forward toward their goals. Dreams only last threw the night, achievement lasts a lifetime. Lifeline the fetus is no longer breathing, heart no longer beating. Product of false love. She thought having baby would keep them together. Just a moment is all it takes, your un-built heart breaks. Reaching out to thin air just to show you care. There's so many ways to die, but I'd rather not see you cry. See I, truly love you and place your happiness before mine. I know it takes time to understand even though you find me interesting some moments I'll be just a man, who cant understand our differences. I don't want to be the one who finishes your sentences. I'm still lost in your city and if I ever find my way I might get bored.Rewarded on my journey by your love and our experiences. There's so many ways to die, so when the last song is over promise me you'll say goodbye.

Come Around

2008-04-29T21:01:00.000-07:00

Come here, because I may never come back here.

Magnetic Bonds

2008-03-26T09:24:00.001-07:00

Oh you'll see
Magnetic visions
Written about life missions
as I float on a cloud threw
Your reality
Actually your the rainbow
Can be your pot of gold?
and if our story is told
We could laugh as we grow old
Unedited
But respected
For holding unto life and not the knife
The flow of life and soul
Come so easily
With imagination
Mixed with Cortez’s
And turtles
We jump off walls
And over every hurdle
My friends shine light
Like ravers dancing threw the night
Right ways
Go wrong
I just want to stand strong
And find my way at the end of the day
G says “check mine out by the end of the day”
M “says you know I’m right next to g”
off ecstasy
whether its you or her
Her and me
The magnetic bond
Of unity
Bleed threw our family tree
We back in the days
Like hippies
And the 70s
We back in the day
Like love peace and family
We hot like a summer day in
Miami
Fuck I’m just talking about my family
Peace
You two

?

2008-03-21T11:28:00.001-07:00

Separated

The world has changed
Thrifty’s have shut down
We move poetically and symmetrically into adulthood
We work 9-5 and the song no longer plays
How do we get the music the back?

I remember the days we used to go the mall after school
I remember when you thought I was hip-hop
I wake up and put my dress shirt on, iron my Docker khakis
When will this all stop?

Reclaiming life hard is especially when the world is marching to a different drummer
All I can see is the past, and I remember smiling laughing being a friend
I just want to know how to get that back

I just want to be able to sit and talk for a while
Relax and not worry about paying bills
I want a new cd
I need something to listen to, the music is so far gone
I collect classic's and go threw classical loves pains

The love strains me
My heart breaks and creates a brand new one
My heart sheds it's skin and I don't know whether it's a butterfly or a steel reinforced wall.

I promise my burnt soul that I will bring the words back,
That will stop crying but I can't
I float threw life like a ghost alone and confused
I used to have someone lying next to me.
Now my little apartment has turned huge
Desolate and lonely
Its just me
Or is it her song
That plays every time I close my drunken eyes
No longer do I share my world, my dreams, or any emotional things.
I lie on my bed and cry
Myself to sleep or stare at the wall until al my tears dry.
See you learn many things being alone with your self
I speak to god hoping his ears are open, I wonder how she is doing
Pull my self out of bed and keep moving.

G+R= My thoughts M+G+R= World domination

2008-03-17T14:10:00.000-07:00

I used to want to be so fake
That everyone would think I was great
Let’s just go for a stroll
And end up somewhere
I just want some brand new kicks
And your dreams to come true
Don’t worry about your period and hormones
Be you around me!
I mean who else could you be?
You succeeded be proud
It’s ok to scream out loud
When no one is around I listen to water
Use you imagination we could all be best friends forever
Whenever you’re sad we can slap you and make you smile
The 3 of us are so clever
With our magic magic tricks
For some reason I want a sidekick
And I can’t even do a back flip
I want to be able to bother you with four letter words
And quick poetry
You want your skin burned
I just want to learn
And to continue
To be me and you
I’m so in love with us
And all the finite mathematical equations

She's a Champion, Just ask him.

2008-03-17T13:41:00.001-07:00

Don’t underestimate her
She doesn’t need to say a word to kill you
It’s her touch that makes your dreams come true
She stumbles and bleeds sometimes
Only to learn a new path success
She smiles like the sun on October 3rd
Processing every element before she strikes
I stand next to her
Wondering why anyone could cause her pain
She give’s so much
That it became her only crutch
I told her I believe in her
But first she had to believe in herself
One day she jumped off the cliff
And found out she could fly
And when I looked up into the sky she became the apple of my eye
She’s my girl
And together we can bring happiness to our world
She says what’s on her mind
Then the next day she became a poet
She wanted to rehearse and then become a nurse
She can do anything she wants too
My queen
My gleam
The most integral part of my team

For my Michelle Yulo!

2008-03-13T14:46:00.000-07:00

You can’t leave

Your starting to be apart of my tree

Girl I know you want to branch out

But why can’t I help out?

I’m still getting to know you

But you’ve become more than a friend

Someone that makes me happy despite the rainy weather

I just want you to succeed , because every time you smile I smile, then we smile.

You’re my girl’s bestfriend and she love’s you too

But with you…

It’s like I have 3-D glasses on

Because I can see so much in you

Everything you been threw just makes you more you!

Something crossed between an angel and a girl with stinky feet

Something like a genius but girl who’s incomplete.

I don’t want to shelter to you, so sister live life.

But wherever G and I go you can come too

We promise to make you the front wheel

And make your comfortable in situations they aren’t ideal

I know life is real

Just know that my words are always true

My mind and my door will always be open to you

Clapping my hands when I see every little piece of your dream come true.

One day she'll come around

2008-02-29T12:00:00.000-08:00

People come and then they go

A secret we share

No one will know

please fill this empty space
that we once shared
we used to tell secrets
but your not there

not there

all i have to do is be patient
and you'll come around
you'll come around

one day she'll come around

where are you now?

its seems my world
has changed
I know the nothing stays the same

the days pass by

and you dont call

oh no no no

all i have to do is be patient
and she'll come around
she'll come around
all i have to do is be patient

one day she'll come around

I close my eyes

your all I see

picturing what we used to be e e

just know

that even though were far apart

you always be

my best friend (dramatically sung)

all i have to do is be patient
and she'll come around

one day she'll come around
one day she'll come around
one day she'll come around

Bridge

You my best friend e end e end

and you believe in me

why don't you come back

come back

so things can be the way they used to be

your un

replaceable

to me

so I just had to let know

how i love you so eo eo

and maybe one day you'll come around

My Girlfriend can write better than you.

2008-02-27T07:56:00.000-08:00

You're a champion.I live under your moon and sun.I look at the shelf of all the trophies you've won.The veteran.But sometimes you have PTS.Post-traumatic syndrome, with your flashbacks.What's up with that?Saying that I'm caught up with my past.But on your most honest moments, when you empty that glass,You talk about your great last.And I don't say nothing, because I'm not that girl.I want you to speak your mind to me, like LL said, let our love unfurl.But it seems like we started so quick and so greatAnd all we can come up with is this, and we can't get past it.Yes, you're a good man-- but I too am greatI'm almost at your level with my young age.You're the veteran, I'm new schoolWith my old school ways, I'm no young fool.I've tripped on different rocks as you,And we all know that I have my faults with you.But I man up to the responsibility,I admit I wronged you, is there something I can do to make it up to you baby?Because it seems like there isn't, the way you hold things against me.Don't get it twisted baby boy, you're not a saint either.But I'm not one to hold it above your head, it's not in me, mister.But sometimes I wish the pain was physical, but it's not.It's in here, where my passion for you still burns hot,But you forgot.Because the things you say to me makes me wonderWhy do I want to stay with you and become your baby's mother?You're so cleverWith your words that break my heartI have no tears, but you tear me apart.But I'm still here, still reaching out my handTrying to work things out because you're my manAnd I understand.You have your demands.I try to live up to them, but if this ever endsI hope we can still be friends.Because our love for each other is like the one in 'On Bended Knee'It just pisses me off that it's enough for you to be you, and not enough for me to be me.

2008-02-26T22:32:00.001-08:00

I’m selfish

I want someone to care about me at the speed of light

We never really have time to really care about something do we?

Unless it effect us in our own personal world or bubble…

My feelings think they are important

I need to find back up listeners

I want attention

I want to be nit picked

Then left in the ally feeling dirty

I don’t want to be able to wash off the feeling

I could give you attention too

I just want to talk

And sometimes just walk

I want to stare at you because your beautiful

In ways that only I notice

Do you remember me?

Maybe my Grandma will love me.

2008-02-26T22:16:00.001-08:00

Even if no one is reading, I would just like to thank all of you who do read my stories and who will do so in the future. I just think its magical the way words can flow sometimes. I feel butterflies in my stomach and let the voice just speak threw me. I love writing in the warm darkness using the computer screen as my light and only focus. I love being able to build a cave of just words. I want to cry because it feels good. I'll let you go!

Peace

-Afreshnerdwithwords.

I don't want anyone to know.

2008-02-26T22:09:00.001-08:00

If I told you a secret would you tell anyone?

Mr. Waterfall

2008-02-26T21:34:00.000-08:00

CHORUS
They call me Mr. Waterfall
Some say that I don't care at all

but I just want you
yes I really want you

VERSE 1
I think love might not come my way
so just lay with me today

talk to me &
tell me you you'll never go away

just stay
girl just stay

CHORUS
They call me Mr. Waterfall
Some say that I don't care at all

but I just want you
yes I really want you

VERSE 2
time is not our friend
a few more chapters till the end

talk to me....

make up a story about who you are
for tonight you'll be my star

on a secret mission
to discover who you are

CHORUS
They call me Mr. Waterfall
Some say that I don't care at all

but I just want you
yes I really want you

Oh the things we do
To find out who we really are

I’m on my own
Oh how I’ve grown

One night the stars might shine

The next night I might change my mind
So be happy with time we share
People come and then they go
but you know I'll always care

Because I love you

Even
If it was for
Just a minute

They call me Mrs Waterfall
Some say that I don't care at all
but I just want you
yes I really want you

by Russell Maceo Duckett

Is that all there is?

2008-02-25T18:56:00.000-08:00

IS THAT ALL THERE IS?
Peggy Lee

SPOKEN:
I remember when I was a very little girl, our house caught on fire.
I'll never forget the look on my father's face as he gathered me up
in his arms and raced through the burning building out to the pavement.
I stood there shivering in my pajamas and watched the whole world go up in flames.
And when it was all over I said to myself, "Is that all there is to a fire"

SUNG:
Is that all there is, is that all there is
If that's all there is my friends, then let's keep dancing
Let's break out the booze and have a ball
If that's all there is

SPOKEN:
And when I was 12 years old, my father took me to a circus, the greatest show on earth.
There were clowns and elephants and dancing bears.
And a beautiful lady in pink tights flew high above our heads.
And so I sat there watching the marvelous spectacle.
I had the feeling that something was missing.
I don't know what, but when it was over,
I said to myself, "is that all there is to a circus?

SUNG:
Is that all there is, is that all there is
If that's all there is my friends, then let's keep dancing
Let's break out the booze and have a ball
If that's all there is

SPOKEN:
Then I fell in love, head over heels in love, with the most wonderful boy in the world.
We would take long walks by the river or just sit for hours gazing into each other's eyes.
We were so very much in love.
Then one day he went away and I thought I'd die, but I didn't,
and when I didn't I said to myself, "is that all there is to love?"

SUNG:
Is that all there is, is that all there is
If that's all there is my friends, then let's keep dancing

SPOKEN:
I know what you must be saying to yourselves,
if that's the way she feels about it why doesn't she just end it all?
Oh, no, not me. I'm in no hurry for that final disappointment,
for I know just as well as I'm standing here talking to you,
when that final moment comes and I'm breathing my lst breath, I'll be saying to myself

SUNG:
Is that all there is, is that all there is
If that's all there is my friends, then let's keep dancing
Let's break out the booze and have a ball
If that's all there is

I'm a Champion

2008-02-21T15:59:00.001-08:00

48365

You thought you could catch me off balance
With your misplaced lies like a wobbly rope
But I’m the veteran acrobat
Yes I have fallen down before
But I have seen it all
So before I perform next verbal stunt
I’ll wait for the rope to stop shaking
Or for you to tell the truth
You told me you’d catch me if I fell
But I’d never thought you’d be the one to push me down
With your fancy pride
Or that fact that you’re past
May have blinded you to who I am
So despite the fact that I am a bitch
And that there is no way you would ever check my email
I still stand strong
Waiting for the next plunge
Or my last sky dive
I have been hurt and broken
Yet I strive like champion and stay alive
Your lies bind you
With the magical rope you and I used to share
Your special so I will give you a chance
To come back into my world
Were you are my only girl
But don’t get me wrong I know there are more in this world
And despite what you think I know I’m special
I can make the sunrise and set
Just by being me
And telling the next “1” my real-life story
Right now I embrace you
So reach out for me too
Or our next step could be fatal
And we might lose me and you.
Delete the past and learn to be the brand new you.

More ish for yo ass

2008-02-20T22:23:00.000-08:00

I want to drown deep inside a circle of friends
Until I cant breathe
With no magic tricks up my sleeve
I want to close my eyes
And fall in love with darkness
Talk to me so we can cut each other with our sharp words
Speak to me in languages that only we can understand
Lets just go threw the motions
Hoping that one day we just float out to the ocean
You're off beat, but on my rhythm
Sharing with me your soul and vision
Talk to me and I promise to listen
Until my flash drive is full
Delete my preset notions of who you are
More than just a beautiful face
More than just a skin tone
It doesn't even have to be you and me alone
We can tell the world we are just friends
I can serenade you with thoughts
And paint pictures of the future
We can burn a fire in the woods
And watch a movie
You can have my heart too
If I knew how to put it back together
And even if it rains I'm down to chill
With you held tightly into my cold brain
Until you become apart of me
We can laugh at everything else
We could love the world and everyone else
You don't understand who you are
Shining bright like my north star

http://g-and-r.blogspot.com/

To my favorite alien..

2008-02-20T08:05:00.000-08:00

I'm just a spaceman floating in the universe
Swimming in what the greater force chose to disperse
I land from planet to planet, hoping to converse
Waiting for my love to be reimbursed
Then I found a home away from my own home
I laid in the sunlight, resting from my roam
Hoping one day, we'll build a dome of our own
And we can both contribute half our chromosomes
Though I have fears and walls I've built upon
I'll break them down because I see you're the one
I just have to make sure before I jump in the mission
That our world won't explode like planet Krypton

The blue sun would set into our eyes

I'll promise that I will tell no more lies
I'll be your daily pleasant surprise
And you will be my heaven in the silver skies
The silver seas engulf us in the waves
But we're at peace, no need for us to be saved
We'll float along, I swear you're all I crave
Please don't deprive me from your sweet embrace
The purple grass will cushion our fall
Dandelions are made from fireballs
And we'll make a wish, one that we'll always recall
To our little planet, nothing catastrophic will befall
This universe is vast and will break us down
But on our rock, you and I are well-renowned
Little green people who think that we're profound
You're a king, you're worthy to be crowned
You're the paradise I have finally found

I'm free

2008-02-14T13:12:00.001-08:00

you could be the girl of my ice cream dreams
instead we will ll take it slow and you can be my queen
of the river
and every night when im alone
ill remember
how I use to shiver
so now when I walk about the city I smile
and when I talk it out I don't stop
I go on and on
Until the people yawn
But it's all about you

Some day's I reflect
And wonder what comes next
I always want more but I know
No one's perfect
Certainly not me
I'm not as cute as I used to be
One day I might tell you it's because I'm a MAN
To help you understand
That I really don't understand

And just because I'm cool
Doesn't mean I won't play you like a fool
And even if I stare into you eyes
Doesn't mean I won't do thing to make you cry
And like it
Even if I try to accept you
I will never know what I might do

The city called and wants all my unused dreams
To give to another kid
More than ever I just want to be regal
Doing crazy shit and be legal
2 legit quit
Is what they used say
I'm just a fragment of who I was from my younger day

But if last night
Could be a movie
Then she could really move me
More than love
I want someone to use me
My secret crush
On the visible invisible woman

You can be stronger than that
Men are like play doh
Though some come in nice packaging
It's like we are all practicing
For something that might never come to fruition
If a star falls in outer space and no one's there to see it
Did it really happen?

Zen master ish

2008-02-04T15:53:00.000-08:00

gianong: don't be angry when i say this..
8:25 AM but it's human nature to keep looking for something that they want and are not getting from someone
I'm not saying you'll go
and find someone else right now
8:26 AM but what if i don't live up to the expectation
and one of these days you'll just be like
no, no this isn't gonna work
me: thats could happen
any day
you could do the same to me
Im not going to live in fear of that
if you actually live in fear of that you got
problems
and you
you
shouldnt
8:27 AM be in a relationship
you sound like Derrick
gianong: how the hell do i sound like derek?
i don't control you
i can't be scared too?
me: cuz my ex
cheated ony me
your going to cheat
lol
8:28 AM Have I lied to you?
what other girls do I talk to
besides
meesh
lol
I dont even go on myspace
you see
im kinda ZEN masterish
about dating
8:29 AM like if we break up
ill find another
so why do I need to look now
thats not giving you a fair chance
ill let you break down your on wal
or build one up
its your choice
8:31 AM gianong: i don't know what to say about this.. i'm not going to give up on you like that. i fight for the people i care about, and if i lost you right now it would at the least affect me.
make me sad or something
8:32 AM me: I would be sad
but not very sad Giselle
your not quantifying
the relationship
I would be sad
heartbroken
but I know life goes on
Trust
i know
8:33 AM cuz Im not with the girl of my 1st dream
im with girl of my new dream
now
and your better
cuz I know what I want
after you
8:34 AM I would have another dream
then anoter
then another
maybe one day
ill stop dreaming
relationships
like all dreams
when you wake up
they fade quickly
you can linger on
and try to remember
that one dream
and then turn it into a nightmare
or you can let go
and realize tonight youll dream again
maybe something fantastic
8:35 AM or may something just ok
8:36 AM gianong: ok
8:37 AM sorry, i really don't know how to reply to that.

Writers Block

2008-02-04T14:50:00.001-08:00

blank words that have no meaning
feeling like you cant you feel
you make me happier
my new friends make me feel special
and comfortable
I want to blackout
having fun is so underated
theres not enough hours in the day
or money in the world
to spend with special people
If your poor we got you
to be so young we are such good hosts
just let go
I hate it when we never talk
I want to get to know all of you
you guys are so weird
she is so comfortable
get to 32 so I can stroke your pet
I love what she writes
I feel special
I have writers block
in case you didnt notice
I like Naruto
Chowder makes me laugh
super ads werent funny
I'm happy the lakers got Pau Gasol!
I want a hug
I want to hold everyone
and not feel weirded out
why cant we give out love and not be sexual
why are we so scared
that someone will leave
why cant we trust every liar?
I'm numb and have writers block

Hope you like this one - G

2008-02-02T08:51:00.000-08:00

So she asks me
"What is it that you like about him?"
My mindsight grew dim
Finding answers to the question
That was previously mentioned
"Why do I like him?"
I could've sworn
I made a poem about this before
But just to be for real
I'll let you know the real deal
About how I feel
My first instinct was to run
But I fought it, I wanted to watch the sun
Set on his face
Until the next day again
Uncertainty about the future
But I won't torture
Myself with the "what if this happens"
"What if THAT happens"
I spend more days a week
In his presence
Which is amazing in its essence
I love his face and his mind
How he wants to challenge me all the time
And it's never dull
Even our easy afternoons
When we just lull
We would watch LOST
And get lost in each other's embrace
And it feels like time and space
Has no role to play
Just me and him and his son sometimes
Who I fell in love with quicker
Than quicksand
When has asks me to hold his hand
When we cross the street to the laundrymat
But anyway..
Back to HIM.
Oh god, when I catch a whiff of his scent
It's like pheromones
Messing with my hormones
I just want to-- *sigh*
And when I go home
The second I don't see his face anymore
I miss him
And I call him to tell him I miss him
And surprisingly he doesn't think I'm crazy
When I act like I'm a character made by Martin Scorsese
Well he does, but still he tolerates me
So why do I like him so much
Is because his touch
Makes me burn like kush
And his attitude makes me smile
His smile makes me smile
Dammit, he makes me smile, period.

I'm hurt...

2008-01-30T15:28:00.000-08:00

So I'm hurt..... I have been off of work for 2 days...... Strangely enought my leg has felt really good... Eddie has got me addicted to lost........

Never take half a pill.... if you do take to more.

The Superbowl is this weekend! who do you want to win?

Maceo is sick....not good at all!

Not much of a blog but it's a tiny little blog!

Oh yeah Stephen has me wanting to try Absinthe......

Makes me think of Giselle

2008-01-25T12:40:00.001-08:00

"Nothin' Else"I was just walking that dayAimlessly(Oh, oh no)You picked a perfect dayTo bump into me(Perfect day, mmm)Probably should've watched the stars in the sky The night before(Heey, hey)But for some reasonWe still met at your store(You, baby)Your eyes have a story that they wish to tellAnd I have my whole lifeAnd I listen well(Hey)Look, I'll be your confidantTell me anythingBut please start it off with how you tuck your wings (Ohhh ooo ohh)There's nothing else that I have seenThere's no getting around itOr in betweenYou're out of this worldExcept you're not greenLookYou don't know what you meanTo meTo meAll my friends meet you and sayYou're the one(You're the one, you're the one... hey ooo)And all my meaningless friendships Should be done(I should just leave them alone, baby, eh heh)You had a friendBut he did you wrongBut I'm a God sent signThat readsPlease move onWith me(With me)You taught me to use my heart And forget my eyes(Use my heart... forget my eyes.. mmm)And that's the way To His kingdom of eternal life(ooh eh heh hehhh)Since you're an angel, babyYour job's never doneToo bad the world won't see youWhen they dial 9-1-1(That's why..)There's nothin' else that I have seenThere's no getting around itOr in betweenYou're out of this worldExcept you're not greenLookYou don't know what you meanTo me(To me, to me, to me)To meThere's nothin' else that I have seenThere's no getting around itOr in betweenYou're out of this worldExcept you're not greenLookYou don't know what you meanTo me(To me, to me, to me)To meThere's nothin' else in this world(Nothin' else)Like you(Yeah)So why is it so complicated?(So complicated)What are you afraid of?(Oooh, ooh)I've been asking everybody What they think(Yeah, yeah)But I don't know whyBecause they don't know you(Oooh, ooh)I'm even asking other guysWhat would they say(Yeah, yeah)But I don't know why'Cause they don't do what I do(Oooh, ooh)Girl, I say an ultimatums for you(Yeah-yeah, yeah)But you'd probably take thatAnd just run(Oooh, ooh)Now I gotta decide if I'mma help raise your mindSeems like the ultimatums or me That's no funI was just walking that day AimlesslyDa da da-dumDa da da-dumDa da da-dumDum dum dum...

Happy but not fresh enough...

2008-01-24T07:58:00.000-08:00

I have never been happy for this long in my life before and I really don't know what to do. You know when your happy you actually begin to care less about other things in your life that used to matter..... Call me materialistic but I like shopping and having new shit.... I like to feel fresh everytime I step out of the door.... NowI just contented.

I've met someone who makes me feel like everything is ok, and if it's not it will be. She makes me feel like I don't have to do anything to impress her accept continuing to be myself, which in all essence is wonderful. At the same time yesterday her friend told me that when you spend so much time together with one person you lose your individualism. I honestly have a great time with my girl and don't mind spending the time with her, what I do mind is that I lost interest in shoes, clothes, and comic books. The funny thing is I told her when we first met I thought she needed to get fresh, but she actually is making me feel like it doesnt matter... But hey it does matter to me, it matters a lot. I like to feel that when I go out on my two days off that I look good.. I like girls that take care of there self, I like to take care of myself!

This seems like a simple issue but it is not. I don't think I am ready to say Nothing really matters anymore. I don't want to lose myself to find happiness. Maybe she will feel different, and disagree with me. But I really really like this girl........I want her to fly with me. Even though I'm 26 I'm on a mission to be the Coolest N****! Sorry I still am!

Freestyle

2008-01-18T00:17:00.000-08:00

I can't look at the stars
anymore
cuz girl you're right in front of
me
A huge what if
is what we could be
you're my uncomplicated complicated
equation
I feel like I understand you
and most importantly
see me
for who I am
a dreamer
dreaming away on a pillow
floating through your sky
let me give you a balloon
so you can fly with me
here's one for your loved one too
the road might get bumpy
so let's build a foundation
out of wolverine's adamantium claws
and if we ever get track we can go into my space ship
and press pause
I never want to have to rewind back
to the good days
I just want to find ways
to keep you smiling
when it's so bright it's dark
let the word of us spark

Fictional Girl

2008-01-18T00:16:00.001-08:00

Fictional girl…

She had a smile like… wait let me think… as bright as the sun light

When we first danced on the moon

The sun came up, it got to hot and we melted into each other until the afternoon

Wait that doesn't sound right…

Fictional girl when I first met her she was rocking a Mr. Rogers Sweater

She said… "I know you're Mr. Poetry, but I'm Mrs. Independent so what do I get from you trying to talk to me?"

I said… "Queen I'm not about that… I want to get into you… Play a million games of scrabble. After that maybe just vibe with you?"

No that's still not right…

Fictional girl, come to me like a rose in the concrete.

Angels will sing when we meet

My fictional girl, is beautiful but not conceded

She doesn't know that when I look her, I see the woman I want to share my life with.

My fictional girl, wants to hold me, chill sometimes and watch a DVD.

She knows it's not all about sex, but they way we feel in each others arms

Fictional girl hold me close, tell me I'm the man you want the most

My fictional girl is different than the others

She understands understand that to make it we have to be more than just lovers.

Fictional Girl the way you caught my eye…

is like a ice cube running down your inner thigh

Fictional Girl I hope we never break up

I know you're not real but still

Nothings ever perfect

I promise to never give up we could plan again and re work it.

I just want someone to love me for me

Who calls me up because she wants to spend her time with me

Who recognizes I'm that I truly am a wonderful guy.

I'll cook your food, I'll write you a poetry book,

I'll kiss your lips no matter how you look

Even if you don't brush teeth, I will still lay with you underneath.. The sheets, with our legs crossed, we can make beats..The music to my soul, the way you love me makes me lose all..control...But what can I do?..I want a fictional girl, but this is a real world..

The sheets, with our legs crossed, we can make beats

The music to my soul, the way you love me makes me lose all control.

But what can I do?

I want a fictional girl, but this is a real world

2008-01-17T15:37:00.000-08:00

Unexpected

2008-01-17T14:47:00.003-08:00

Unexpected

2008-01-17T14:47:00.001-08:00

Where's my girl?
I want to be lost in love

I want her to sneak up from behind

Kiss my cheek and become my daily surprise.

We could rise just like the sun and the moon, and melt into each

Other in the afternoon

I want to close my eyes and see her

Multicolored skin tone,

And taste her ethnic lips

I want to be the one that comes threw, when she needs me

My girl looks like an angel in a white dress

I must confess, the she would be my whole world

Trapped inside one girl

One woman to give my heart and soul to

Ever day I would tell you why I love you

The world could crumble but I would be good, with just you

Everyday I would let her know how special she is

Shining bright in my sight like star from up above

Love I know your out there waiting for me

Until then, I'll continue to dream of the prophecy of you me.

Our love was written in the sky

We wouldn't even know each other passing by

By I know she'll come

And I'll wonder what solar system she came from

My alien from Venus

No one will ever be able to put out the fire between us

So like a spaceman I search for new unexplored love

And expect the unexpected

Because love isn't always what it seems

Until then I wait for my love riding down on a moon beam

Let go

2008-01-17T14:39:00.001-08:00

Let go and dive into the ocean of emotion

Smiles all around you

Love in your heart

The futures ahead you

Tonight you cry

One day you look back and wonder why

You couldn't just GROOVE with the soulful tunes of tomorrow

Close your eyes and just slow dance with yourself

Loves last melodic note

You won't let go, you grab onto hope

And your soul moves with the rhythm

But not the wisdom

I close my black eyes, and dive into the moonlit darkness

Of my life

I want to be free and captivated

Lazy but sometimes motivated

Love but not smothered

Be friend and lovers

But most of all be nice to baby mothers.

your mom

2008-01-17T14:36:00.001-08:00

Love was lost at the liquor store

She takes it again

Like his honorable, horrible, hands are the air she breaths

He quickly loses his weird cosmic, comical, control

That he never really had

He dives deeper into his abstract view

He thinks she deserves every song, scream, sound, and all the evil expressions that the monster can think of.

The monster comes out to play for just a moment

He slaps her the way, his father did his mother, now he wants to hold her, and he screams out that he loves her.

There she is knees bent bleeding blissfully crouched in the corner of the couch.

She doesn't stop living, she doesn't stop yelling, she remembers all the times he's put his hands on her.

They've made love, they've bruised her skin

Arms around her shoulders, she thinks this is the last time.

She sneaks silently sailing into the kitchen

She grabs the ending of story, sharp and shaking

He screams "I'm sorry! I love you so much"

She runs to him across the field of sorrow, like two lovers in a movie.

He holds her tight, tears falling down his red remorseful eyes.

The blade penetrates the unsuspecting skin, kind of like a slicing butter on a hot summers day.

He falls to floor, and then to hell, or wherever else monsters go to die.

She couldn't remember the last time smiled, or the last time she felt free.

Blood dripping gently from her hands. Her self esteem bruised more than her face.

She laughs lonely and lost. It's over.

Naruto

2008-01-16T09:41:00.000-08:00

You have met your match

2008-01-16T08:02:00.000-08:00

I just realized I still have your "freestyle" poems that you madewhile you and I were chatting like a month or two ago.. Agent 2

You make me feel like I can be me
I could just lay there and relax and you could be the sea
Or the ocean
We will lastor just drift away off this emotion
talk to me give me all your words
i won't let them go
into the air
and i promise to do things to show you i care
you might not notice
but i'm into you and your bad jokes
i see you past the lights
and the smoke screens
wishing one day you could be in my good dreams
i promise to let go of old thoughts
and let you be brand new
it's not easy i have walls around my heart
I want so much in you girl
that my soul mate has to be from another world
so instead of jumping into the pool
i stick my big toe in so hopefully you'll be there when i decide to get wet

AND

Me and you alone There's no description
I can paint the perfect picture
It's like your touch was written all across my skin
Dive deeper into my soul
Lay next to me
As we float across the galaxy
On ecstacy
Or the planet Mars
We could make time and space just ours
I could kiss your lips
And caress you hips
Slowly you'll see
Or we could just chill and watch the OC

G's First Post (Bus Stop Part 2)

2008-01-15T22:13:00.000-08:00

So I'm on the Metro going home from school
16 years old, at that time it was cool
How I acted out on impulse, like I'm invincible
Trying to find myself, and believe in a principle

I remember too well how I loved as I lived
Get hurt by each guy, then get back on the wheel
Brush the pain off with a couple of strokes
"Relax and take notes while I take tokes"

A voice called out, small but not faint
"Excuse me young miss, but your bravery is feigned."
I looked shocked, but I still felt like I should listen
I stared in her eyes, although aged, they still glistened.

"You can't give up yourself for the sake of acceptance
One day you'll be wiser and you'll see what I'm saying
Because pleasing others will amount to nothing
When deep inside you're the one who's been aching."

I remained still, my mind in a race
You should have seen the look on my face
The bus stops, and I get up to leave
I'll never see her again, but I'll always believe

The bus stop

2008-01-15T09:07:00.000-08:00

She was old
Yet still beautiful
Her face focused on the sunrise
With every facial expression you could look in her eyes
And see her story
She survived many wars with men
Made it past the mountains of experience and sin
Here she is now a walking melody, standing right next to me
All of sudden she said
“You seem troubled, remember to live for the moment, not tomorrow or yesterday.”
Her hair was gray, and her words were strong
I said “I lost myself a few years ago, sadness massages my soul and I can’t let it go”
She smiled and put her hand upon my shoulder. “The more you hurt, the more you learn. I let go and just live, 100 years I’ve been here. Love comes and love goes, but if your Mind is strong yet your heart is weak, the world might walk right by you”
The bus came and she disappeared amongst the other faces.

To be continued.

2008-01-14T14:57:00.000-08:00

I want 10 of these....

2008-01-14T14:15:00.001-08:00

Weekend Recap.....

This weekend was pretty fun.... I threw a little get together for Stephanovich's birthday. We all got drunk and Stephen set my carpet on fire..

I'm loving the Naruto series... The only thing I hare is how Sakura acts to wife like..... Gaara is the man!

The Lakers won last night, but Andrew Bynum was hurt and it doesn't like good...

On yeah I also got drunk... and dropped some skittles. Good times!

Turtlelover23 and Agent 2 slept all of Saturday wasting their life away while I fixed #2's computer.

I will try to post something creative later... if my brain can process life fast enough.

2008-01-11T06:17:00.001-08:00

Yumm call me if you want some fat meat in your mouth tonight! Party time son.

Russell's words of wisdom

2008-01-09T15:27:00.000-08:00

How was your day today? Good? Nice kid. Anyway I had one of those easy breezy work days, I just chilled and made a super bowl quiz. Yes I get paid for that...anyway a strange and magical memory came into my head.

One night G, Michelle, and I were coming back from THE BRIDGE and as you guys know I kind of live in the hood... but we saw some Gangbanger riding horses up Imperial Hwy. That was some crazy shit.

LOVE CUZ I'm the EXPERT or THE SEXPERT.

Yesterday this mysterious guy let's just call him Stephen King was having girl problems. Not to be mean but seeing someone or how someone react to pain and loss is a wonderful thing. This guys was dating a girl that he just could not commit to (I don't blame him for that, she probably had smelly armpits or something....), but he was acting like he couldn't let go. I always wonder if in fact you care about someone that much why don't you just make a commitment to the other person..... But that's what happens with nice guys....we let girls we don't like in our world because we are nice and assholeish at the same time.Not a lot of people out there in this world know what they want from relationship. Please don't give a guy or girl shit who didn't commit to you 16 months ago when you met him because he wont commit to you now. If you have low self esteem issues you need to deal with that. It was your choice to stay in the relationship so when you can no longer take it deal with it and move on or go FUCK YOUR SELF. OK THAT IS MY UNEDITED RANT OF THE DAY.

I like Takashi Murakami but his art costs to much......Honestly he is just a cooler version of hello kitty.... More like Hello Kitty does shrooms.....

2008-01-08T15:15:00.001-08:00

My next shoes.............Sessy, I am going to make love to these.

Ok so....

2008-01-08T09:23:00.000-08:00

I posted my old work and some new work. I write. If you didn't know that, than you are retarded. Check out my stuff, read G's stuff and enjoy our brains. Read and be happy!

Quote of the year so far:

"Your mom bitch! Just kidding I love your mom!"

Made Famous by Drunken Johnna.

More old poetry, Old to me but new to you

2008-01-08T09:22:00.002-08:00

My love story

The girl next door

Had my heart in a cup of sugar

We never knew the right questions to ask, see god doesn’t talk about these things he just keeps them to his self.

I love her smile, and they way she felt like home

So now we just float through years and the tears

I never wanted to cause her pain, I only wanted to chase her and tell her I love her in the falling rain.

And for awhile she was mine, we lived life never focusing on time

Never correcting the small big things, we were just in love.

Now time flies’, I neglected my best friend .I wasn’t a man; didn’t love her the way a queen was meant to be loved.

She gave birth to my Sol; I swear my heart opened up with ocean of emotion

In my hands was my greatest love, and next to me was my truest love.

Amazing how you start to sink in the darkness, it was always me and her, now we have 3.

I was jealous of my own creation, they way she loved him

I must be crazy.

Now she’s gone and I can’t breathe

I call her begging, but she’s not giving in

God chooses now to repay me for all my sin

Love come back to me I can’t do this without you

I live with tears and everything involving her becomes sadness

So many things I did wrong, but girl I can make it up, I can make it up!

I love you! With all the pieces of my broken heart.

This must be dream, but it hurts to much be a dream

Can’t wake up and take back something you never had

Remember appreciate all the people that come through your life

They can be gone so fast. Girl you left so fast,

But ill get her back, so we can be better than ever

Conquer the aliens and get back together.

Call me crazy, but what’s wrong with being crazy in love with you?

2008-01-08T09:22:00.001-08:00

I WONDER WHY/WOMEN CRY/ WISE MEN TURN INTO DOPE FEINS/WHY DO I DREAM/USED TO WANT BE SOMETHING UNTIL YOU REALIZED EVERYTHING IS NOT HOW IT SEEMS/LIKE CLOCKWORK YOU WERE MEANT TO BE A GANGSTA SINCE YOUR PRETEENS/ WE LIVE IN THE JUNGLE ITS NATURAL TO HEAR SCREAMS/WE WERE MEANT TO HAVE BAD DREAMS/ FROM PAIN WE LEARN THINGS/ ITS REAL OR IS IT FAKE/ TAKE LOVE AND TURN IT INTO HATE/ THE HOOD IS TELEPATHIC/ THERE IS NO LOGIC WHEN YOUR SON GETS SHOT DOWN TRAGIC/

We could Just chill

2008-01-08T09:21:00.000-08:00

We could just chill for hours

Just me and you girl all dress downed

no make up, smile on your face with your hair down

no one around so can just be you

we could just chill

in our own world

we could be free

lounging on the couch with your favorite movie

just chill

for a minute and talk to me

I want to see what you see

On a life raft floating in the ocean

I’m high off your love potion

We could just chill.

But since we’re all alone

Could I kiss your skin tone?

No more talking on the phone

Face to face in the twilight zone

Just chill

Let me rub your back

Exhales then I take a step back

Smile look into your eyes

Your are my star ship enterprise

Just chill on the bed

I found the keys to my space ship

Open your eyes let my kiss your lip

Can’t get into to much detail

You look good in those sweats in our own private fairy tale

Xerox

2008-01-08T09:20:00.002-08:00

I’ve written about you 1,000 times before

She is what happiness, sadness, and all that’s in-between can be.

Living poetry, she is the strong woman, with the big heart.

She smells like what a woman should smell like.

Her touch is so hot it makes you melt

She has the power to

Make butterflies fly into your stomach

She gives you so much love that you want to give the world to her

She takes care of business and cleans the house

I don’t have to worry about anything

Until she left

I need her back because I can’t breathe

She took your heart and put into a cute coach bag

I never realized she gave her self to me

But she’s so strong that she won’t come back to me

This is my greatest pain that I will ever feel

I will take all her screams

I will love her unconditionally

She’s worth fighting for

We built this love and the foundation it’s to strong to crumble

Hate me and I’ll love her

She is the mother of my love

I believe in her

I’ll let her go for now, because I know she’ll make the right decision

Because she is the inspiration for every love poem

Assistant

Lost in love

2008-01-08T09:20:00.001-08:00

Lost in love

Fuck it I’m more than lost I must be addicted.

Restricted by your lost love

From your touch and voice

What happened us love?

I guess you fell out, and I feel deeper in.

How long has it been?

I’m drowning and you just won’t take my hand.

I just wish I could love you and be your man.

Type a guy to care for you, and let you be you.

My friends say I shouldn’t talk to you

But some reason my minds always about you

touch my paper it's hard.

2008-01-08T09:19:00.001-08:00

I thought you were just another girl

Until I found out you were from another world

You caught my eye/ and it took me by surprise

I realize we just met

But can we talk past the sunset?

I know other guys have broke your heart

But can I help you fix it piece by piece, part by part.

I want to stop the world and be in love with just you,
To bathe in the glow of your eyes,
Journey a thousand miles to the land of your conversations,

I want to stop the wind and listen to you,
sing songs and whisper your thoughts,

I’d close my eyes

And release all the butterflies from inside

I want to paint the moon red and sleep in your arms,
We could dream together, sleep in and turn off the alarms.

Just me in you in the ocean of us

Don’t know whether its emotion or lust

Now, that's a whole different story,
Your kiss is like swimming in a heaven of milk, butterscotch, honey and white chocolate

Queen I'm crazy about you!

I just want to stop the world for a while and make a beautiful moment

Me and you

2008-01-08T09:18:00.001-08:00

I know I’ve been busy girl

But you been on my mind

It’s time to make time

For just me and you…

Your always in style

But I just want your smile

So let your hair down

And just be with me

Sometimes I look at you

But you don’t see me

Girl I want to be

Apart of everything you do

Until it’s just me you……

Chorus:

Me and you….. you

Me and you .

Me and you…. you

Me and you.

No more talking on telephone

Now were all alone

Just me and you…

Girl just close you eyes

I want to taste your lips

Exploring your body…

With my finger tips…

We could make love

Or you could just lay my arms

You’re my angel

From the sky above

It’s just all about me and you….

Chorus:

Me and you….. you

Me and you .

Me and you…. you

Me and you.

I dont edit

2008-01-08T09:12:00.001-08:00

It feels good to feel good

Let go and dive into the ocean of emotion

Smiles all around you

Love in your heart

The futures ahead you

Tonight you cry

One day you look back and wonder why

You couldn’t just GROOVE with the soulful tunes of tomorrow

Close your eyes and just slow dance with yourself

Loves last melodic note

You won’t let go, you grab onto hope

And your soul moves with the rhythm

But not the wisdom

I close my black eyes, and dive into the moonlit darkness

Of my life

I want to be free and captivated

Lazy but sometimes motivated

Love but not smothered

Be friend and lovers

But most of all be nice to baby mothers

2008-01-08T09:11:00.002-08:00

LIKE YOU,

I AM WHAT I AM, I DO WHAT I DO

I AM MY OWN DESTINY

AT THE SAME TIME MY GREATEST ENEMY

AND JUST AS MY VICTORY, MY DEFEAT LIES IN MY OWN INITIATIVE

BUT IM ONLY HUMAN AND LIFE TAKES TIME TO LIVE

LIKE BROKEN HEARTS TAKE TIME TO HEAL

BUT LIFE PASSES BY SO QUICKLY

YOU GOTTA COP A FEEL WHEN YOU'RE IN THE MOMENT AND WHEN IT'S REAL

SEE MEMORY LANE ONLY TAKES YOU SO FAR

AND YOU TRY SO HARD TO HIDE THE SCARS

YOUR LANE BECOMES A CUL DE SAC

CUZ YOU DON'T WANNA GO BACK AND RELIVE THE SHIT YOU'VE BEEN THROUGH

SO YOU BUST A U-turn /AND TRY TO FORGET THE HURT THE PAIN THE ANGER and the rug burn

DAMN LIFE HAS CHANGED SINCE I WAS YOUNGER

WHEN YOUTH INVOKES YOU AND CURIOSITY PROVOKES YOU

10 YEARS FLASH PAST WITHOUT YOU KNOWIN WHERE YOUR TIME WAS SPENT OR WHAT IT MEANT

BUT IM SICK OF TAKING MY TIME FOR GRANTED

LIFE CERTAINLY AIN'T ENCHANTED IT ISNT THAT FAIRYTALE I THOUGHT IT'D TURN OUT TO BE

THEREFORE I REPEAT

I AM MY OWN DESTINY - SAY IT WITH ME - I AM MY OWN DESTINY!

SO DO WHAT YOU WANNA DO

GO WHEREVER YOUR HEART MIND SOUL AND DRIVE TAKE YOU

BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY ALWAYS STAY TRUE TO YOU.

BY THE HOME RACHEL

I dont wast time

2008-01-08T09:11:00.001-08:00

I don’t waste time on hate

My people oppressed, depressed cant wait

For they welfare check

Just to put clothes on their baby’s neck

We could move quiet

But one day it’s going to be a riot

I never thought I’d be saying this but ignorance is truly bliss

Some cat’s live without knowing what the real is

Hear this rhyme and be like what’s the deal

I look at this world and ask myself why?

Some days I wonder why I try

That’s why I say fuck this country

Building nuclear weapons while people live hungry

The youth

2008-01-08T09:10:00.002-08:00

My young people

I love how you do what you do

Acting wild at parties, when police come you act like you never knew

Going bout life like it isn’t a white mans world

Don’t get me wrong be yourself

But stop being so ignorant

We kill each other, beat mothers, raise our daughters

Without fathers,selling drugs

Cuz you cant live off bread and water

But im thirsty and I want you to open your minds to

Open your minds to

But you worring about red or blue

Always wanting to take shit

Take the government not your block

Then well have more power

Don’t move so fast be patient

You think I want you to stuggle

Tears from our ancestors fall out my eyes

Some of the young and wise wont listen

Thinking im preaching

The music we listen to affects society

Wether we believe it or not

Female mc’s got 14 years old trying to find they g spot

Yoall like me cuz I say things

You don’t understand

Or label me cuz I speak a certain way

All I do is speak the truth

Cuz the only we we changing is threw our youth.

Just like Daddy

2008-01-08T09:10:00.001-08:00

THEY SAY IM JUST LIKE MY DADDY

MY MOMS WISH SHE NEVER HAD ME

Deep concepts I see threw lost souls

Close my eyes and meditate on the bullet holes

I emancipate my mind and stay of focus to create my own destiny

So many shoot out like desperados

I walk threw wars, enlightened mind, while I hear the sound of semi-autos.

Where?

2008-01-08T09:09:00.001-08:00

Where’s my girl?
I want to be lost in love

I want her to sneak up from behind

Kiss my cheek and become my daily surprise.

We could rise just like the sun and the moon, and melt into each

Other in the afternoon

I want to close my eyes and see her

Multicolored skin tone,

And taste her ethnic lips

I want to be the one that comes threw, when she needs me

My girl looks like an angel in a white dress

I must confess, the she would be my whole world

Trapped inside one girl

One woman to give my heart and soul to

Ever day I would tell you why I love you

The world could crumble but I would be good, with just you

Everyday I would let her know how special she is

Shining bright in my sight like star from up above

Love I know your out there waiting for me

Until then, I’ll continue to dream of the prophecy of you me.

Our love was written in the sky

We wouldn’t even know each other passing by

By I know she’ll come

And I’ll wonder what solar system she came from

My alien from Venus

No one will ever be able to put out the fire between us

So like a spaceman I search for new unexplored love

And expect the unexpected

Because love isn’t always what it seems

Until then I wait for my love riding down on a moon beam.

Drowning

2008-01-08T09:08:00.003-08:00

Lost in the blank sea of white

Dripping ink over the clouds like hot chocolate and vanilla ice cream

I dream of free freedom but that gets to complicated

I want to drift inside the world of you

But still fall into conversations with my imagination

And say things that aren’t true

I want to be loved but not ruled by you

Set me free

To walk suburban streets

To close my eyes and move my head with the beats

It’s more than what happens beneath sheets

Me and the whole world in rhythm

I’m spinning with your brain in my hands

I lay with her in the sand

It’s sad but love I don’t need you

I just want you next to me

I’m glad that you came into my life

I selfishly want more

Nothings enough

When your not who they think you are

When you’ve fallen in love and try hide it

My love must be a clumsy ninja that fell off the tree

I sit watch and anticipate her next movement

I even try to write poetry in secret code

Maybe she’ll understand

That we could be a love movement

Love has educated me more than school books

Captivated by the words and looks

Heart break hope

I’m so strong and sensitive

I take a knife and cut my throat

Just to feel how real this is

I’m bleeding but now my words just want to stay alive

But is there ever really a good reason to hold on?

Isn’t every love song just another song?

Love can be only written so many ways

There is no promise of forever or always

So why don’t you take a chance and tell me what you feel?

I promise I won’t tell anyone but the world

That I have the most magnificent pearl

No one can understand but us

The difference between love and lust

Say what you want to say

Because our time together might miss the bus

And we could be left with what we could be

So let’s make it happen

You! Yes you! Your a Star!

2008-01-08T09:08:00.001-08:00

I BET YOU DON'T KNOW WHO YOU ARE

SHINING BRIGHT LIKE A STAR

BABY GIRL YOU MY CUTIE PIE

I WONDER WHY

SOMETIMES YOU FROWN

DID THE WORLD PUT YOU DOWN?

QUEENS OF THE EARTH IN ALL ESSENCE

ITS LIKE I'M SURROUNDED BY DIVINE PRESENCE

IF NO ONE TELLS YOU YOU'RE WORTH MORE

YOU DON'T HAVE TO CRY BEHIND THE DOOR

WHETHER YOU THICK, SKINNY, PURPLE, OR BLUE

GOD CREATED AN ANGEL WHEN HE MADE YOU

I LIKE TO EXPLORE LIKE GALILEO

MAPPING OUT THE GALAXY OF WOMEN

LET'S START IN THE GHETTO

BLACK/BROWN/YELLOW SKIN

OH GIRL YOU SUN GLOW

LOUD AND OUT SPOKEN/EVERY NIGGA HOPING

BUT IT'S A MARATHON NOT A TRACK MEET

THE BRIGHT RED ROSE FROM THE CONCRETE

WANNA LOVE YOU GIRL FROM YOUR HEAD TO YOUR FEET

DO YOUR THING. YOU'RE SPECIAL

STROLLING THREW THE HOOD WITH AN ATTITUDE

NOT FALLING FOR DUDES WHO BE ACTING RUDE

JUST REMEMBER ME THE POET WHO TOLD YOU, YOU WERE BEAUTIFUL

YOU ALREADY KNOW I LIKE A GIRL WHO ROCK A SB DUNK

I LIKE A GIRL WHO'S INTO ROCK AND ROLL, HIP HOP, SOUL, AND FUNK

I LIKE A GIRL WITH A BIG FAT… BRAIN

I WANT A GIRL WHO WOULD KISS ME IN THE RAIN

I WANT A GIRL THAT CAN DO HER OWN THING

I WANT A GIRL WHO CAN BEAT ME AT SCRABBLE

I LIKE A GIRL WHO CAN TALK AND NOT GRAPPLE

I NEED A GIRL WHO CAN COMMUNICATE IN WORDS

I LIKE NEED A GIRL WHO CAN CONJUGATE A VERB

A NEED A GIRL WHO WANTS TO FALL FOR A NERD

THAT NIGHT SHE TOOK HER CLOTHES OFF

HE SAID, "BABY GET DRESSED LETS TALK"

WHAT WOULD DO IF I SAID I WANTED TO DIVE INTO YOU

I BET YOU NEVER HAD A GUY THAT WAS SO INTO YOU

ETHNIC PRINCESS

YOU TOUCH MY SOUL

I JUST WANT TO MAKE SURE YOU'RE COMFORTABLE

RELAX WE IN THE FOCUS NOT A CONVERTIBLE

LET'S JUST MAKE A MOVIE ABOUT US

LOST IN THE OCEAN LOVE

SEARCHING FOR OUR OWN DEFINITION

IF YOU GOT A GIRL OR A DUDE THATS COOL

NOT REALLY INTO RELATIONSHIPS, GIRL I JUST WANT TO EXPLORE YOU

MAYBE YOU CAN BE THE ONE

AND WE CAN RUN TO SUN

I JUST WANT TO BE YOUR HERO

LIKE ROBERT DINERO IN CASINO

I KNOW HOW TO TREAT YOU RIGHT

AND YOU DREAM ABOUT ME NO MATTER WHO YOU SLEEP WITH AT NIGHT….

Intro to art

2008-01-08T09:07:00.001-08:00

Intro to art

I was waiting like a blank canvas

She came in and splashed a spectrum of color on me

and tipped over my unsteady easel

My achromatic life was now filled with intensity

And mysterious pastel colors

With each electronic brush stroke she made me remember

The symmetry we shared once before

She said our abstract worlds were painted differently for a reason

We needed to get our brushes broken so we could learn to finger paint

So now we clean our past with turpentine

Her work is vintage, you could search forever,

it would still be hard to fine

she was created from a mixture of surrealism and street art

the modern moving vision of beauty.

Her magnetism draws me in

I can’t lie I have a crush on her new style

I’m just hoping we can be friends

So I can view her each and every exhibit

And never prohibit her art

The Irony

2008-01-08T09:06:00.002-08:00

The Irony of Love is Love

The freedom to love another is a decision. One either chooses to be free in love or imprisoned behind the bars of passion love sometimes provides. To ignore that passion however, is an imprisonment within itself. There is no love without passion yet passion is not the fuel for love but lust. Irony is the standard by which love lives by. Love is as direct as the sun and as indirect as the oceans waves. There is no beat by which these waves obey. There is no precise direction these waves intend to follow. Love grows in the same way. Indirect, and Unknown. Love lives in mystery but strives in truth in honesty and openness. When thought of love can seem so simple. When lived, love is complicated. People are complex. What light shines on the heart in love symphonizes the beat by which the beautiful music of love is created. The beat of this heart is direct. Uncomplicated. Solid. So many contradictions, denials, pains, broken hearts, truths, and lies that exist because of love. But to deny any soul what is the music of love is to deny that soul what is the music of life. There is no happiness without pain. There is no peace without strain. There is no love without life. There is no life without love.

So is there a true meaning to love?

I was always under the impression that you only added someone or allowed someone to be in your life because they made you happier. They do not complete you, you have to be whole to completely love. They say that no one is perfect, but once you say the word I love you shouldn't you get every single thing that you want and desire from that person? Love seems to turn into a form of control, they start nit picking about the little things you do, when supposedly they loved you for who you were. Oh and the Classic "I love you, babe" then there’s this silence and then person says "Babe, don't you love me?" just because they didn't hear it back. How can something so grand and special be given away to those who don't search or strive for the definition? Love is not no, LOVE is a yes to being happy, and letting the other person be able to grow inside of your garden of love. Alas I feel I will travel the galaxy and never meet the person to share my on going plot to find the true definition of a four letter word. I would much rather live and swim in a circle of friends then be trapped in someone’s psychological retardation of love.
I know love is out there somewhere sitting behind a park bench in Ghana waiting for me to find it. I want so much out of this world, that I hope I do not come off bitter in this piece. I want to find and capture love that lets me be free and loved. Love that wants to build with my creative dreams. Love that wants to fuck doggysytle somewhere in the galaxy. Twillight Zone love, is waiting for someone, who is waiting I guess. I can never find someone that satisfies my thrist completely and if I do they are in a relationship or to motivated to be in a relationship. The irony of love is that I know how love but my true love is no where to be found.

To all my ladies

2008-01-08T09:06:00.001-08:00

Ok to all the ladies out there I have a question for you! Respond back to me please! I was wondering when and why do girls get that urge to dress sexy? I mean nowadays you have ten year olds trying to show off their stuff and it’s gross. I mean what make’s women feel like they have to show off there package? Not enough attention? What? This whole thing perplexes me and needs to be solved. I remember back in the day when a girl putting on make up was a big thing. Now it’s like everything goes. It’s funny how when that Destiny’s Child song “Independent Woman?” came out young females wanted to come out and be equal whores like us guys are. I think there is so much pressure on American woman to have that typical coke bottle shape and look sexy, that most girls lose their childhood by think they have to fit a certain mold. I really don’t know this is just what I think. Please feel free to correct me. I believe that we are all equal, trust me I know some genius women. But please learn to value your self more. I mean I like a naked women, but the real prize is not in your body it is in your mind.

Being serious.

Ok one thing that I find weird is that every girl I know has been molested or raped when they were younger! WTF is up with that? Why is it so fucking common? There needs to be a better way to get some type of communication going between young girls and the authorities. Most parents don’t even believe this is happening and just shush the girl aside! We need to get awareness on the whole child molestation thing.

I write a lot, your write a little.

2008-01-08T09:04:00.000-08:00

Love is conditional?

Ok so you meet that special person, or you’re already with that person. When problems come up what do you do? Do you choose to stick it out and keep dealing with it? What happens if it comes up again and again? From what I have learned we all seem to latch on to relationships and the missing link is love for yourself.

Is love supposed to make you feel like shit?

I don’t know about all my readers. But I have certainly been in a relationship in where I knew it was crashing faster than Lindsey Lohan into a stop sign. But you know what I chose not to let go! We are all so secretly co-dependent in that we will allow or put up with things until a person has drained all of our happiness. What is it? Do you feel like you can’t do any better? What is the person doing so good that you are willing to put up with someone checking your cell phone, some one asking where you are at all times, someone who doesn’t like your friends, someone who doesn’t like your family, someone who get’s mad over all the little things you do when you really weren’t trying to hurt them. (There’s more but this is all I could think of!)

Love starved and searching for happiness

Ok so are we stuck in the desert and is love our water? Why is someone else’s love so important to us? I mean can’t you love your self? American society has given us this implanted false image that we can’t just depend on ourselves. That we need some one else to complete who we are. I am under the impression that none of us know what love is. I can’t even begin to say I know what it is. I have suffered threw many a bad relationship, ranging from abusive (physically and mentally), to just down right people who just want sex. What I have learned is that we have to learn to find our own slice of heaven in our inner selves. When you step out of that door know exactly what you want from this day and life.

Take a step back, look at your support system!

Why is it the most mileage we get out of our friend is when something is going wrong? I mean why don’t our friends fill that void or the gap that a relationship takes up? You have to learn that having someone there is the same as having someone there! Isn’t it? I mean do you feel the need to be held and loved? What is it that makes people not truly, truly, not feel completely loved by there friends? I know I myself whenever I get to hang out with my buddies, I just smile the whole time and know that it is great that we are having a Kodak moment together. With no pressure, no rules, just open ears, and minds.

Get what you want out of love and life

In no way, shape or form am I trying to down play love. Fuck I know I am searching for it. I beg of you all to learn a way to complete your self, your life before taking on someone else’s luggage. To those of you in a relationship right now. I say don’t give up, but don’t let someone keep punching you in the stomach weekly. We are all beautiful amazing people. We need to figure out a way to get what we want out of this planet! If you figure it out let me know! For now I will sip on my Italian blood orange soda…sipppp.. AH! Delicious and let you cats get back to your life. I love you!

My best friend told me to be strong/ she said leave that girl alone/ and the right one will come along/ I want to give that back to you/ you used to turn my skies to blue/ now your searching for you/ inspiration comes when you just let go…/hold on to your friends and learn to let your emotion flow/ we all get weak/ we all get emotional/ but no matter what ill be here to help you through the dark clouds…

Old stuff, that you still want to touch

2008-01-08T09:03:00.001-08:00

The miseducation of Russell Duckett.

I never realized until last night, how far off I was or am from knowing what love was or is. I used to be this co-dependent guy. You know the one who calls you on the phone to much? I wanted to know what my girl was doing, and when she was doing it. I made everything feel like it was my way or nothing.

Now here I am one year and ½ removed from my last real relationship (excuse me other girls) and I don’t even have any clue on how to like someone. I get scared that if I call too much, the girl will think I am all over them. I get scared that if I care about someone they will think I’m “Clingy”. I keep thinking over and over in my head that if someone likes me they will match my effort and reciprocate what I do, even though what I do is remain aloof, and just stay busy with work or life.

I don’t honestly want to be alone. But I don’t want to wait for someone to go to; the movies, museums, basketball games, comic book, and book stores with me. Honestly my friends have been horrible throughout this whole process of being single. Yes I have found a few new friends, and girls that intrigued me, but I honestly haven’t given my all.

I just want to be able to let go of all the negative feelings of inadequacy that I have inside. I want to be able to like someone, like have that feeling to show someone that I am a great guy! Like fuck it, I like you, so yeah I am going to bug you a little bit, to show you that I am interested, and want your attention. I don’t know I just have that feeling of insecurity… That I talk too much, that I am overbearing because I get really interested in other people, I am loud and outspoken some call it rude, I just want to find a girl who knows that’s just me. A girl who won’t put up with that shit but understands that’s me. I’m off in another world somedays, but I will always have my love’s back, and I will always be there to hold my “ONE” when needed.

I am a sweet, strong, intelligent, romantic, goal oriented, creative, nerd, comic book loving, ethnicity interested, and semi-cute guy. That’s me. I spoke to a friend last night and she said to just be you, and I agree. So from today after you my readers or friends, acknowledge this email or letter I will have changed. Take me for what I am because I know I am a wonderful person, I have made mistakes in the past like everyone else, but here I am now. I am not going to let anyone use and abuse me. Love me, and you will get that back 100 fold. Be my friend, and I’ll be there for you when you want to talk late at night.

I can’t lie, I want to be held. I want a long kiss. My arms are forever open to the right kind of love. So right now I will throw away my urban pride. I don’t care if I meet the girl of my dreams and she doesn’t love me back or even like me. I am going to go after what I want, because I want it. If I get nothing in return, I will still have gotten education from my experiences.

To every person, girl or guy that I have come across in the path of light, I apologize for doing you wrong. Take that sentence because that’s all you’re ever going to get from me. The past is the past. Leave it there. I have become a more unique and genuine person. I find it unacceptable and I will not put up with people who are blind and don’t see me for what I am now. I don’t need you, you don’t need me either. But while we are in each others lives let’s have fun and do it right. Its sucks that some of you had to wait for my change, but here I am, accept me. See me for what I am, or don’t see me at all. YOU WILL LOVE ME! HOW CAN YOU NOT?

Relationship in Quicksand

2008-01-08T08:31:00.000-08:00

It looks like my life is changing

I'm melting into someone new

She said "I just want you to be you"

So we dove into the swimming pool of conversation

Talking about spaceships and the O.C. without sexual stimulation

The plane is crashing I tell her to hold on, and let go at the same time

I never tasted it but we must be like fine wine

She's my best friend and eventually all mine

I gave up my shovel

No more searching for mysterious buried treasure in the temple of doom

Just two people in a room

Filled with friends

And smiles

I really like you but let's put our relationship in quick sand and see if it can make it out

Two Mad Scientist both putting there heart at risk

Willing to jump into the abyss

It's funny but I was never good at math

But I can see the equation when you make me laugh

It's like you got a pencil and paper

And your touch is erasing all my past problems

My new lady is still there when I make mistakes

Jumping off buildings

She always stops my falls

When she's not strong

I build brick walls

Were like Batman and Batman

The unstoppable duo

everything is always cool yo..

And I will never undermine you like Starscream and Megatron

I will always find you no matter what planet you sitting on.

I write for happiness until the ink bleeds and the papers dies

Your are my daily pleasant surprise